Not My Business

     Several weeks ago a new friend mentioned to me that he heard things about me. Less than positive things. Unflattering things. Likely, the result of vicious gossip that was initiated and perpetuated by people whose only roles in my life have been hurtful ones. Initially the news of these “things” that were said about me hurt and upset me. Mostly because untruths had found their way to the ears of someone new who did not yet know me well enough to formulate an opinion of me absent these “things”. But on a larger scale, I was concerned about what potential rumors may cost me in terms of future friendships and relationships. After having the opportunity to get to know me a little bit, this new friend confirmed that these rumors were, in fact, no cause for concern because he was able to determine that despite a lack of chemistry between us, I seem to be a decent human being. Which I hope I am. 
     I’ve been giving this issue some thought lately and I’ve come to the conclusion that what others think of me is completely irrelevant to me at this moment in my life. I am not in the business of collecting friends for sport. I have come to the conclusion that when encountering a new person, I must evaluate what their value is to me before proceeding with any type of relationship, friendship or otherwise. Will he or she be a positive influence in my life? If so, I will cultivate the friendship. If not, let them believe the lies. Truthfully, those who even doubt my value as a friend are better off believing the lies anyway. 
    I am an extrovert by nature, but sometimes I’m better off behaving as an introvert. As much as it pains me, I have become less social, less involved with people in general. While it doesn’t result in increased happiness, it does ensure a simpler life, and for that I am grateful. 

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